What a fabulous week! Most of it was spent ramping up for the Snap Out Of It! Conference on Thursday. It was my first performance with Jonathan (my husband and band mate) and my first “outing” as a singer. Even though I sing and play flute at Agape Center for Spiritual Living each week…this was my project and I was nervous. A ton of opportunities for clearing came up and I just kept processing them as I went along. There was no turning back – I had made the commitment and was going to show up. The question was how was I going to show up?
One of the main things I needed to processes was that I am where I am at this given point in time. I could continue to practice for the gig and I could flush out some areas that were giving me trouble, but for the main part – I am where I am. I am following my heart in this musical journey. I am singing because that is where my heart is leading me and I trust it. I’ve experienced too much to do anything other than trust. In fact, trust came up A LOT. Trust in myself, trust in the Universe, trust in my heart and the guidance I was receiving, trust that all would be well. That’s a big thing: trust. So…I just keep showing up, asking for the next step, taking action, saying “Yes!” to the opportunities that come in, and ignoring the little voice on my shoulder that tells me I’m not ready. Does any one out there know that voice I’m talking about? The one that stops you in your tracks? That keeps you from taking opportunities that are presented to you (and that you usually regret declining at some point in the future)? Yep. That voice. That voice continued through my entire gig and you know what? That that little voice that said I’m not ready was wrong. I was ready for whatever came up. We always are. And despite that voice – we received tons of positive feedback and unsolicited compliments after we played. Was it perfect? Nope. But then again…wasn’t it? Isn’t it always perfect? Isn’t it always just as it should be? Was it perfect in the ears of the art critic? Not likely. But we got an offer to do an in-studio performance on Enlumnia Radio Network, I was offered the opportunity to play flute on upcoming performances with Dr. Paul Hubbert on his crystal bowls and my music coach Robin Hackett told me to get out there and play as often as I could. I am ready. Too often we wait for perfection instead of having the courage to just leap. I’m going to leap…the net is waiting should I fall and I will bounce back up again to leap once more.
I would say that’s not bad for a first gig. But even more that that…there was the really great feeling behind the fact that I stepped out. I showed up. I got the nudge that I’m here to sing and I took action. Now the question that keeps coming up is…what’s next?
My question to you is: are you stepping out into your dreams?